I call myself lonely but I cut off a lot of communication with people because I’m sick of feeling like I’m completely unimportant compared to everyone else.
tbh the worst thing about being a self aware mentally ill person is that people assume that because you understand your illness you’re automatically able to actually apply your knowledge to your life and cure yourself
Do I know my brain isn’t making the most sense right now? Yes. Can I stop it? No.
“I have anxiety. I’m anxious.”
“But nothing is happening right now! You shouldn’t feel that way!”
honestly man i just want someone to want me. to text me. to use a simple situation as an excuse to touch me. i want someone to think about me when they go to sleep and to tell me exactly that. i want someone to flirt with me, to ask me out. to hold my hand. i want someone to call me in the middle of the day, if for no other reason, because they felt like it. i just want someone i want to want me back.
when I was younger, I used to think true love was tumultuous and intense. but now, I feel like real love is gentle. passionate in a soft, sweet way. not fireworks and drama, but a love that’s like coming home, the breeze on a still summer day. a balm to the aches of the world.
